fantasy


I am tired of being alone

Of pretending I do not need anyone

That I am happy when I’m really not

Of smiling when I’m really crying inside

 

I am tired of feeling empty

And hollow inside

Without any warmth

I miss smiling secretly to myself

Of being filled with happy thoughts

 

I am tired of feeling no hope

Or sense of anticipation about the future

Of seeing life as a bleak existence

Without any suspense or thrills

 

I am tired of not having anyone

With whom I can just be myself

Without pretending to be strong or weak

To be just myself knowing

That I will not be judged

 

I am tired of walking on the beach alone

Without holding hands

Of not having anyone to share the

Feeling of the cool breeze on me

To enjoy the sound of the

The sea waves crashing on the shore

 

I am tired of looking at the full moon

Wondering if someone else is too

Thinking about me

I miss not being the

Special somebody to someone

 

I am tired of waiting for my Mr.Right

And now am left wondering

Whether it was in vain

And if there would ever be a Mr.Right ?..........