mY wOrLd....................

Tired of this life.....

Thu, 04 Jun 2009 17:39:15 +0200

I am tired of being alone

Of pretending I do not need anyone

That I am happy when I’m really not

Of smiling when I’m really crying inside

I am tired of feeling empty

And hollow inside

Without any warmth

I miss smiling secretly to myself

Of being filled with happy thoughts

I am tired of feeling no hope

Or sense of anticipation about the future

Of seeing life as a bleak existence

Without any suspense or thrills

I am tired of not having anyone

With whom I can just be myself

Without pretending to be strong or weak

To be just myself knowing

That I will not be judged

I am tired of walking on the beach alone

Without holding hands

Of not having anyone to share the

Feeling of the cool breeze on me

To enjoy the sound of the

The sea waves crashing on the shore

I am tired of looking at the full moon

Wondering if someone else is too

Thinking about me

I miss not being the

Special somebody to someone

I am tired of waiting for my Mr.Right

And now am left wondering

Whether it was in vain

And if there would ever be a Mr.Right ?..........

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Discord...

Mon, 05 Jan 2009 16:00:16 +0100

There's a time

In everyone's life

When love turns sour

And sorrow

Fills one's soul

Words fall between

Empty spaces

Emotions bottled up

Too long, turn bitter

There's a fault

At every move,

Every look

Of the other

No more smiles

No more laughter

Hearts turn away

Anger spills forth

Causes are many

But reason the same

Hearts turn cold

Brain takes over

Superior, logical, fair,

And yet not quite the same

Where's all the romance?

The banter, the pranks?

The efforts to please the other?

Those days are past

Both agree

Childishness they retort

At the beautiful

Memories of sunshine

In their lives

Yet, isn't it strange

That this matured image

Acts double the child?

Battle lines are drawn,

Wars errupt

Artillery spills forth

In violence and tears,

They approach the courts

"What is to become of us?"

The children moan

"Divorce !" , the judge proclaims

His hammer sending

A chill of finality

In everyone gathered around

Two seperate ways,

Two seperate lives,

Years pass by

Where's love now?

An emotion so pure,

So enchanting, so blind?

"'No more love !"

Aphrodite sighs

The world has changed

For better or for worse,

You decide...........

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Blind Fury

Wed, 08 Oct 2008 18:31:51 +0200

It took him a decade
To face his ghostly past
And tear away the facade
Underwhich he had hid ten years last
A dusty winding road along the hill
Took him to a merry little town
Where once he had set foot
As an uncouth youth of nineteen
With unshaven face and dusty boots
Wind toussled hair and fadedwell worn clothes
He had at once been judged by the folks
As a reckless fool of a youth

But soon all this was to change for he,
Got himself entagled in the perilous web called love

A gentleman was born then
With clean shaven face, shiny black boots
Clean new clothes and politest of manner

She was a flaxen-haired beauty of seventeen
Whose blood red lips and gold flecked eyes
Squeezed the youth's heart afresh
Putting him in sweet agony

As was his custom he tossed a red rose
To the widows's lovely daughter
Who stood waiting at her balcony each night
Gifting him her tenderest smile
She melted into the shadows with his precious rose

His heart and soul singing a joyous song
To his home he rode on his black stallion
Everything around him seeming beautiful
The soft cool breeze ruffling his thick black hair

Thoughts of her filled him night and day
And he toiled earnestly in the fields
To make a home befitting his lovely queen

One night he found no beauty
Awaiting him upon her balcony
His sorrow turned into rage in an instant
Hearing the laughter and many voice within

Bursting in he saw his love
Embracing a man whose voice he'd heard
Blinded by fury he drew his gun and fired
The aim which was true pierced the heart
Killing his rival in the hands of the golden eyed beauty

"Oh father!", whispered his queen
A scant second before dropping her long lost
Father's lifeless body on the floor
She then fell unconscious in shock of her nightmare

Her mother now twice widowed
Let out a heart wrenching scream
That jolted the youth to reality
And to the magnitude of his mistake

He fled then, knowing the fate that awaited him
On he rode for days and nights
Until his stallion gave in to fatigue and died
Putting as much distance possible between himself and the town

Ten years he worked and lived
In town after town
Finding no peace nor joy
Haunted by his deeds his black past

Each night he awoke drenched in sweat
Seeing the same nightmare every night
Driven to the brink of insanity
He struggled to get through each day

And then one fine morning finding atlast
His long lost courage and recklessness
He rode back the lonely winding road
Once last time to face the demons of his past

He dreaded recognition
But found none because of his
Long beard and and ragged clothes
Enquiring about his love
He atlast found his way

To where she now rested
Under a black granite slab
Beside her parents in the cemetery

Removing his hat he fell to his knees
Bowing low his head in grief and pain
Tears finally coursed down his face
Dripping onto his love
Seeking forgiveness for what he had done
Ten years back in wave of blind fury.........

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Sunset

Sat, 16 Jun 2007 16:07:37 +0200

The sun has set
On my horizon
My life has plunged
Into darkness
There's not a ray
of hope in sight
Nor a helping hand
Every moment that
Ticks by
Is nothing but
Pure agony
Days drag on
What is the point
I wonder
In just going on ???

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Voices........

Wed, 06 Jun 2007 11:21:28 +0200

Voices,unknown voices,

Whispers, rustling,

I can hear them

Its near me

Its around me

They are around me

They are mocking

They are laughing

Is it me?

Are they whispering about me?

Yes its me

I'm the one who lost

Who failed to meet

Life's challeneges

I'm a failure

A fool ....

Who flunked

Who couldn't even

Pass an exam....!!!

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LiFe

Sat, 02 Jun 2007 15:46:01 +0200

Ma life seems
Such a mess
Don’t know how
To get them straight
Coz it only gets
More’n more tangled
Exams are havoc
To ma peace of mind
I’d love to just fly
Away from this
Bloody nightmare
Its such a mess
Oh baby ma life’s
Such a big mess
Not movin’ forward
Not goin’ backward
I’m stuck in the middle
Oh ma life is
Just stuck in the middle
Ma life is such a mess!!!

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Nothing Lasts Forever...............

Sat, 28 Apr 2007 10:25:47 +0200

Life is just an illusion
A glimpse,nothing less,
Nothing more
Pain and tears
Bygone years,
Nothing lasts forever
Soon its only a memory
So waste not a moment
Run before you get left behind
Grab hold your present,
Feel the breeze on your face
The softness of the sand on your feet
Hear nature's song
Th pitter-patter of rain
On the roof and in the pond
Don't put off giving somone
A hug or a pat
Because you never know
When you'll be gone
If you'll be there tomorrow
To see a new dawn
Yesterday is always gone
And tomorrow never comes
Greet each dawn with hope
Let your eyes smile with your lips
And feet tap to your heart's song
Find joy in little things
Only then can you find
Golden memories to cherish
In future.............

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Land Of Lost Dreams....

Thu, 07 Sep 2006 07:01:14 +0200

To every person with shattered dreams.....

I died, but no i did not go to heaven,
Nor was hell to be my haven
Instead by some strange twist of fate,
I ended up in the land of lost dreams
Failed hopes, broken promises screamed,
Luring strangers to take them up
I picked up a droplet,
Enclosing the dreams of a young girl
An orphan left at the doorsteps of a house
Send to an orphanage,
Growing up with hopes to be adopted someday
But fate deciding otherwise
Shattering all her dreams
In an earthquake which swallowed up,
An entire face of earth I picked another one,
A dream of a soldier at war
Dreaming of going home,
But blasted off in a bomb
Never to see his family again......

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